Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Morning Jibber Jabber.....

We woke up a little late to get Ian to the bus this morning so I ended up having to drive him and Evan both to school. On the way to Ian's school, we came across an accident. Our streets around our neighborhood are pretty little tree-lined streets where most people observe the speed limit so I am not sure what in the world caused the horrific scene we witnessed this morning. There is a little park that I have posted pictures of the kids playing at before. Somehow this car looked as if it had backed up over the curb and through the park fence.....there was a pickup truck facing it nose to nose as if it had pushed the car backwards over the curb and through the fence. The car was wedged so tightly between the fence posts that the firemen had to literally saw off the top of the car to get the person out. They were sawing as we passed. When we came back the other way after dropping Ian off, they had gotten the person out and had packed them onto the stretcher.....they appeared to be alive which was a relief. It serves as a reminder that some of the worst accidents happen right around the corner from home.

Meanwhile, Addison managed to undo her carseat belt....a new trick she is trying to master...and had climbed out of her seat onto the floor of my van. The only reason I had realized this was because she announced that she needed to pee and then proceeded to pee right where she stood. I heard the trickling and looked back to witness it. Nice. Suddenly I am missing diapers.....Ok, I take that back, no more diapers! Any ideas on how to keep her contained in her carseat now that she has figured out how to unlock it?

I had the thought yesterday that I am really entering a new stage in my life. For the past 8 years I have basically focused all of my energy on my kids and family. And I have been totally fine with that. I would do anything for my family....sacrifice anything. However, I have been feeling like maybe its time to allow myself a little time for me....not a lot of course because my main priority is still here at home but you know here and there.....lunch with a friend, bunco once a month, voice lessons. I still have to fight the urge to justify it....just like I am doing now. It is difficult for me not to feel tremendous guilt when I leave the kids with dad or with a babysitter. Even though I dont do it that often, it is hard for me. But, it feels so nice to get away even for an hour. Is that horrible? I just decided that I am already 37 and I dont want to be 57 and thinking, why didnt I do that? So, slowly I am entering this stage and kinda enjoying it..... I am meeting friends for lunch this weekend.....next week I have a bunco game and a voice lesson..... In Jan/Feb Im going on a 3 day girls trip to Taos, New Mexico for some skiing..... Its nice to have me time and I think it will make me a better mom too! One of these days when I get in better running shape, and I will, Im going to start making little running trips to different races. I plan on bringing the family to those though! Im hoping my kids will catch the bug to run and be healthy with me..... Anyway, I am just jibbering this morning but wanted to "write" down my thoughts.

For those wondering, my father-in-law Don is not doing very well. Some are saying they hope he makes it to Christmas, others are more positive. It is difficult to really know how he is doing from here of course. He fell a week or so ago and really hasnt gotten out of bed since. He wont eat. We think he should stop taking the chemo for a little while to try and get his strength back but others are to afraid to allow that......I hate to hear how he is suffering. I hate that my kids probably wont get to see him again. I hate that we cant help somehow. I hope he knows how much we love him...... We are going to send Denver there for a couple of weeks over Christmas so he can spend time with his dad. They did get a new medication yesterday that is supposed to help him eat. I hope it works. He can use all the prayers he can get......

5 comments:

pete/chris whipple said...

Oh my...that is sad about Denver's dad..what a gift to send his son to visit for awhile..great. I am happy that you are in a place in your life to be able to remember you. It's ok. Your kids will be ok. You are expanding your horizons and growing..You know that your family is #1 priority and you will always know that. So grow and have hobbies, it will make a happier wife and mother! When you come home squeeze those babies and tell them you missed them and will always be there for them in more ways than they will ever know! I hope you understand what I am trying to say.. Love yourself and remember to make the time for your talents and abilities! ok. I'm done for now. love u.

Turleyfam said...

Well said by my Mom. There is a season for everything but it is good & healthy for you to allow yourself to be the best you that you can be. That is also an important lesson that you teach your children. Balance is the key, it can be tricky but oh so worth it.

Alisha said...

Sorry to hear about Don. We will definitely keep the entire Shannon family in our prayers. Good for you for taking time out for yourself...it will ultimately make you a better wife and mom!

H2K FAMILY BLOG said...

I am so sorry to hear about Don not doing well, I can only imagine how hard that is on all of the family and you guys not being there. You will all be in our prayers!!

Nice to hear you are starting a new season in your life, have fun!!

Anonymous said...

I am truly sorry to hear about Don. I will keep everyone in my prayers. It is really hard to see your love ones in this kind of shape. It is down right heart-tearing/breaking.

Vanessa and Denver, please let me know If there is anything at all that I can do. I do my best to do it.

Your friend from KY,
Trena